Reason of Existence

I just thought that since I have so many negative thoughts in my head all my life I am going to record every single one of them and then hopefully when I read them again I would realize how ridiculous these thoughts are and finally snap out of my self-destructive habits of over-thinking. What a noob way to be having the same freaking way of thinking when there are many school of thoughts to be employed. This year, all I want is less negative thinking. Stupid people never change their mentality and hopefully my self-bashing on this blog will make me realize what a dumbass I am for not maturing at a normal human being's rate.