Being a Half-breed ^^

CHINESE NEW YEAR-post = Being a half-breed like me (half-breed as in a mixed child like Renesmee Cullen whose father is Edward Cullen, a vampire and mom, Bella Swan), has some difficulties that is not entirely unavoidable but is exclusive. So I would like to put down my thoughts
on this.

1) Having an identity crisis. Being a half-breed made me unsure of who I am. I am always confused of which race I am more suited at. Am I more of a Chinese or more of a Malay? It might sound silly but that was how I felt. But now I realize that I should just be a mixed and be a balance between both.

2) Being a miscast. Being a half-breed is not entirely the reason but I do feel out of place when I am in a Chinese group or a Malay group but I learn that it is better being like a salt-water fish who never gets salty living in salty waters (heard this yesterday from a seminar).

3) Having conflicting taste for women, since I am mostly raised in a Malay group, I used to prefer Malay beauties but as I grow older, I find Chinese girls more attractive. So, in order to bring balance to this, I decided to prefer Japanese instead because I know there's little chance that I might get one so I would be able to control myself when I am around pretty malaysian girls.

So let's see, who are the people in my life that is a half-breed, hurmm... Mrs.R, the SriLankan+Malay beauty. Mrs.R doesn't seem to be having an identity crisis. She was a total miscast during when she first started out but found her place in a group of boys and then gradually made friends with some Malay girls. She does have conflicting taste over boys (I don't want to elaborate on this, =.=')

Who else.. hurmm... Mrs.Noob (noob as in naive that she thought Mawi purposedly used Broken english in his commercial) ... she does have an identity crisis, she was a miscast, but don't think she isn't sure of what boys she like.

Who else? shit... how could I forget, my brothers and sister are also half-breeds. They are all successful though. Doesn't seem to have all the problems I mentioned. So like I said, if i were strong enough, I wouldn't let all these problems be a problem for me. So I think I should start focusing on the plus side of it like having an increased chance of getting an amoi cause some amoi did show interest in me because they thought I was chinese. LMAO.