UnconditionAL LoVe Vs ConditioNaL LoVe

Koharu providing me an umbrella in rainy days might be a dream I should have since I am a big fan of her but NO!!!, I would not be a person who depends on a girl giving me protection. i'd rather die being single than ever depending on a woman cause if you are controlled by a girl, you'll have to meet conditions and girls will never love you unconditionally especially if you are being controlled.

I always thought that only our parents and God love us unconditionally. When I look at the problems I created for them and messing up my life, I realized that they never ever hated me. I guess that is why the people you should really take care of first and foremost is your parents and not a girl. When a girl loves a boy, there's always conditions. The boy has to treat her well, take her out for movies, candlelit dinner, be faithful otherwise they will get emotionally unstable and go nuts. You definitely can not say the same with our parents.

I had a conversation with my best fren, Mr. F. and he told me his unfortunate experience of being in a 1-month-relationship with a girl who name start with F too and I arrived at the conclusion that if ever a guy is going to fall in love, it's better that he falls in love with someone who loves him no matter if he is sometimes immature, sometimes irrrational, sometimes rude, sometimes weird otherwise the guy would be dumped so fast before he can say the word, 'Bitch'. Girls always say they want a guy who treats them well, so Mr.F is probably the dream guy of every girl but NO, the girl dumped him cause he treated her too well. Sucks.

This adds to the paranoia of me being in a relationship where you need to be this and that to satisfy a love interest's interests. So that being said, I concluded that probably I'll focus the next five years getting money and then fly to Japan and kidnap Koharu and marry her. LOL... just kidding...(or not).. The truth is, it sucks being masochistic in a relationship. It really is. So I'd rather be a sadist.